DARK POETRY ~ “Shutting Down” by Tina McFarlane

I’m shutting down

I just can’t
The words melt
And slip between my fingers

I want to hide
Curl up in a ball
Smothered in darkness

My heart’s desire is weak and failing
I wish that I could revive it
Bring it back

I may be afraid to fail
But I’m also terrified to succeed

Lost in the scribbles and blank pages

So, I shut down
Unplug
Go dark…

Is it gone?
Was that all that I have to give?

I must believe
Find that tiny bit that’s left
Coax it out
Dragging and screaming
‘Cause it’s afraid too

I will tell it
Not to be afraid
Even as my hands shake

I don’t want to go back
I don’t want to go there
Back to the before

So, what do I do?
I keep walking forward
Stepping on my own toes
Out of the sticky mud
That holds me here

Soon, I hope to find myself
On firm ground again

I wrote this last month on my blog. I think that we all find ourselves here at some point, the key is to keep going…